Foreword by Sudhir Sopory
Photo Credits
List of Illustrations
Acknowledgements
Bhūmikā: The Ground
Part I: Beginnings and Education in Europe (1940-1967)
1. Birth: Between Harmony and War
2. Ancestral Roots
3. Persecution and Refuge in Grossarl
4. Post-war, We Are Poor
5. Childhood and Music Education
6. Teenage: Fall at Mönchsberg
7. At Crossroads: Beginning University
8. A Fateful Meeting with Raimon Panikkar
9. Rome: A Catholic Initiation
10. First Immersion in India
11. Preparation towards Doctorate
12. A Retreat in Patmos
13. Līlā: Doctorate Completed
Part II: Exploring Indian Traditions: Art & Spirituality (1968-1985)
14. Beginnings in India
15. In the Presence of Saints and Sages
16. Yogasūtras and PY Deshpande
17. Love of Sanskrit: Learning from the Pandits
18. Making of the Vedic Experience
19. Banaras: City of Music
20. HWL Poonja and the Lucknow Adventure
21. Transitions in Banaras
22. Abhishiktananda’s Fulfilment
23. Alice Boner and the Art of Odisha
24. Return to Europe
25. Vienna and Indology
26. Final Years with Parents
27. Shivamurthy in Vienna
28. Towards a New Freedom
29. A Transformative Retreat (1978)
30. Return to Banaras: Settling in Assi Ghat
31. Pilgrimage to Kedarnath
32. Towards Kashmir
Part III: Fulfilment in Kashmir Śaivism (1986-)
33. First Meeting with Swami Lakshman Joo
34. 1986: An Eventful Year
35. Śaiva Dīkṣā: Initiation
36. Yajña: Integrating Inner and Outer
37. Kyoto: Spirituality in Interfaith Dialogue
38. Śaiva Centres in South India
39. Life at Ishvar Ashram (1988-‘91)
40. Sharika Devi’s Liberation
41. Mahāsamādhi of a Jīvanmukta
42. Phulchatti: The Flowery Roof
43. Sailing on Two Boats: IGNCA and Alice Boner
44. Spiritual Anchors in Europe
45. Interreligious Dialogue in Practice
46. Kailash: The Archetypal Pilgrimage
47. Beginning of University Teaching
48. Continuing the Tradition
49. Śāradā Kula: My Students
50. Enchanted by Mystical Poetry
51. IIAS: Scholarship in Shimla
52. Overcoming Suffering and Death
53. The Essence of Trika
Glossary
Bibliography
Index